o. dear

such an exhausting day. i wound up striking a bunderbate pose and contracted a major headache that bordered into migraine territory. i had to take a lot of meds and went and got a woman to lay hands on me at relaxstation. it was really helpful.

more meetings and teaching and a brown bag on my work in the central campus center where i am teaching and where i have a toehold. i got some really good feedback on my work from a number of people who have never heard me talk about my research. i got the best advice from julius who actually heard me talk about my work once before. it is a relief to have that behind me.

i am exhausted from the Sturm + Drang (actually more like Ruhe + Drang) at home right now. as i explained to my mother on the telephone this morning,* i actually really believe in living with other people, and i know it takes work, but i don't need it to take this much work. i like the idea of a lighter footprint and on, but i also don't like having to negotiate with moody so and so/s. and as i have typed all along, three is a very hard number...it's too hard to see saw with three human bodies and one big big dog.

but here is something really nice and sweet: my officemate christina greeted me with a hug this morning as i came into our North Campus office and sent me home with a hug tonight. you really can't actually know how much that meant to me. aside from my students who seem poised always to hug [me at least], she's the first person who really treated me so affectionately.



* hurrah: they are back from russia. they had a blast and really really enjoyed themselves. there were few americans on their trip. and my parents explained that they really enjoyed getting to know other people who lived other places. my mother explained: we were the minority. we were among the ugly minority,