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i am worn out from this week. this afternoon i found myself in the faculty resource room with the really fast computers, the color printer, mod chairs and walls. i was on a furtive phone call with a person on the hiring committee at one of the places where i have an application pending, while keeping an eye on the simulcast of the tcaup 100 conference so i could get back to the auditorium (one floor down) because i was involved with moderating the Q + A. i had on the computer screen in front of me chapter four of the diss so that i could get a revised, polished chapter off and posted as a writing sample. i heard myself explaining the two new classes i am teaching, and mentally started running down the list of things to do for next week. i felt so sleepy and i had a splitting headache.

i wish that i could be in the midatlantic to keep company with my d.c. and b'more friends and families. i also wish that i could go to that traverse city b+b with julia for a writer's retreat weekend. that can't happen anytime soon because every weekend is booked up basically, but i can wish, can't i?

tomorrow, more conference and big gala dinner. i am hoping that i can fit into my foundation ware and keep my stilettos on through the whole event.