discouraged

i underestimated how exacting it would be to work with so many students who accept the status quo. i have been sharing with some privately how i suspect that i am mainly training students to be better consumers. it is killing me right now.

campus crusade for christ is in its full glory this week (maybe they are in His glory?) with a huge marketing campaign for conversion. the campus is saturated with royal blue signs emblazoned: i agree with sam. they have the marketing down. first, they rolled out signs all around campus. then, they issued t-shirts with the same logo. yesterday, a full page of the student newspaper was devoted to sam's conversion experience. what next?

initially i thought sam referred to sam walton. i knew that this involved something i didn't like and didn't trust. i was close: it wasn't for the greater glory of capitalism, it's for the greater glory of Christ.

for christ's sake.

i am not born again so i know that they are coming for me. but they are also coming for my queer students and colleagues, my jewish students and colleagues, my atheist students and colleagues. we are beseiged.

the efforts of interfaith council are not mitigating this. nor is my colleague's screening of a dream in doubt about post 9-11 hate crimes against sikhs.


oh and by the way: no news on the director for next year.

i feel so flipping adrift.